you died in my arms. you died in my arms! you freaking died, and then you left instructions that I wasn’t allowed to save your life. you wanna know what I’m scared of?! I’m scared of everything! I’m scared to move, I’m scared to breathe, I’m scared to touch you! I can’t lose you. I won’t survive. and that’s your fault. you made me love you, you made me let you in, and then you freaking died in my arms.